So I (21F) got a call from my parents last night that my twin sister was taking herself to the ER.

For context, she and my parents do not talk very much because of how horrible my twin is to them, and my entire family. She’s fresh out of her first relationship, that she ended because he was “uggo”. My twin is what I can best describe as an “attention whore” and I know that sounds horrible, but let me explain.

My parents called me at 11pm and asked if I could visit with her because she was thinking of harming herself, and they wanted me to be there for her. After mentally preparing myself, I got into my car and drove to the ER.

My twin has been in and out of ER for the past few months due to self-caused illness such as acute pancreatitis due to poor eating habits and alcohol consumption, and trouble breathing due to lifestyle choices. And I’ve visited her every time without fail. TL;DR nurses know me. I walk in, check in, and within minutes I’m back there with my sister.

As I walk in her first reaction was “what the fk are you doing here??” followed by the nurse asking if she needed security, to which she said “maybe”. Wow. I ask her if she wants me to leave and she says no it’s fine, so I ask if I can do anything for her and we talk for a few hours.

As the night goes on she begins to talk about SUPER strange things, such as my dislike of my older sister’s boyfriend. She said “God wasn’t there when the holocaust happened, do you really think He would bat an eye at our sister being ‘dicked down’ outside of marriage?” I was horrified, she said it so loudly. Another thing was she was in depth talking with the technician stationed outside her room about our parents sex life, and many many personal things that are none of her business, simply because her room was in front of the nurse’s station and she could see the reactions of people.

After so much more unspeakable things were talked about, she admitted to 3 nurses in front of me that when men pursue her online (discord) she SENDS THEM PICTURES OF ME. For the past 2 years, she would send strangers online pictures of me claiming them to be her. And it doesn’t stop there. My twin sister was having E-sex with men over discord for at least a year, all the men doing that to my face. I am in absolute shock, one of the nurses looked at me just horrified and we stayed quiet. My twin fills the silence and says “don’t worry they all had positive reactions, and all thought you were very pretty.”

I feel exposed, exploited, betrayed and disgusting. I have no other words for how gross and hurt I feel.

Shortly after that we had seen a lady who was passing away. They had been doing chest compressions for at least 40 minutes and unfortunately she ended up passing. It got quiet in the nurses station and my twin loudly said “damn I’m tryna be like that.”

The looks we got were mortifying.

I decided to endure sitting with her for several hours more because I care about her, and she was accepted into a mental institution set to be transferred in a few hours. At this point it is after 4am and I was exhausted and I couldn’t wait too much longer, I knew she was in good hands and the nurses told me it was ok if I left and they would keep me updated.

I went home and slept for a couple of hours before taking my mom to her doctor’s appointment, and then going home again.

I couldn’t stop thinking about what she said about the pictures of me. Was she making it up for attention? Was it to get reactions out of people? It was killing me to know. And I was praying it wasn’t true.

I text her ex boyfriend. I make him aware of what I’ve been through and he cuts me off and (paraphrasing) he said “I know, she sent them to me too, and I could tell it wasn’t her I just didn’t know how to tell you.” Oh my God.

He sends me a photo she sent him and it’s me.

I’m panicking. I block her on all social media.

And Ex goes on to tell me that my twin is obsessed with me. Talks about me all the time, and if he ever brought me up to include me in group outings, she would freak out and tell him to just go “fall in love” with me instead.

Ex didn’t know about her sending pictures of me to other men online.

There’s so much more to this story but I’m absolutely exhausted and it’s taken so much to actually type this out.

What do I even do going forward??